Relationship Advice: Please Don’t Fall In Love With Me—I’m So Afraid Of The Consequences
Oh, if only we could control this…
. I only ask one thing: please don’t fall in love with me. Don’t fall in love with me so much that I alone fill all your thoughts. Please don’t sit and think about how I smile and how my eyes light up when you look at me. I don’t want you to fall in love with me.
‘Cause it scares me, and that’s how I try to protect my heart.
I don’t want my understanding of everything you’re going through to overwhelm you. I do not wish for you to overlook my humor, to remain in bed and recollect our conversations throughout the night as the rest of the world slept.
I just don’t want you to fall in love with me.
Because my heart is tormented by doubts, and maybe all love in the end involves parting.
Maybe some of us just want to be unloved because otherwise, we’ll burn out in love too quickly.
Maybe I just want to live where there is no love because it’s easier.
And it’s easier to ask you not to love me—so if I find out that you don’t love me, then there will be no disappointments.
However, I’ve already started to anticipate your departure, and it deeply saddens my heart.
I don’t know what to do without you anymore.
So you don’t have to fall in love with me anymore. Even as a friend. There is no need to fall in love with the way we understand each other perfectly, the way we understand our silence.
Maybe if I politely request that you not love me, it will not be as painful for me when you disclose that you have fallen in love with someone else.
Maybe I can convince myself that it’s true, and when you do leave, it won’t be a surprise to me.
I’m just asking you not to fall in love with me.
Please don’t think about me every time you wish on a shooting star.
You know that I will think about you.
Please don’t fall in love with me, because I can’t be only half with you.
This time, I am confident that I want it all.
I understand that you didn’t say no or goodbye to me, but I’m afraid it’s only a matter of time. Usually I hide it—under a smile, under passionate text messages, under the guise that everything is fine with me. But I can’t do this anymore. I can’t pretend anymore. You are part of my life; you are important to me.
No matter how many great friends I have or how many other men want my attention, you give me something that no one else can give.
In fear of losing this, I ask you not to love me.
Not because I want it, but because it’s easier than asking how you feel. Because questions lead to answers, and answers lead to closure. And it’s hard to think about ending something because it seems as if nothing has ever really begun. So please don’t fall in love with me. This is only applicable if you intend to stay with me forever.
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